Imperfect Readiness

The Offering by Jeanette Amlie

Sometimes we must accept that we are ready for what comes next despite our flaws and failures. Sometimes it is our very imperfections that make us ready for what is needed in the world, despite what we may feel. Sometimes we need to step forward into life with doubt and fear as our closest companions, knowing that they are our teachers too. This feels like one of those times. 

I have been doing some deep inner work over the last few years that has taken me into terrain I never could have dreamed of. Sometimes I thought I would never emerge again in one piece, for gathering my pieces was much of what I was doing. 

Yet here I am...perhaps as whole as I'll ever be. And maybe that's enough. No, maybe that is just perfect. For I have realized it is my ability to be with what feels broken or divided or lost or intolerable and not shy away from it, that has given me my greatest strength. 
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I'm a deep diver by nature. I bob up to the surface to say hi to folks I love from time to time, but then it's back down to the rich and mysterious depths again. This time of year invites deep diving for me. For years I have gone into a sort of creative hibernation, where the darkness is my friend and makes it safe enough for the timid and the sketchy parts of me to reveal themselves. However, this year feels different. I don't feel like I have that luxury. This year it feels like my whole cast of characters is being called up and out into relatively unfamiliar terrain.

Part of that will be starting to offer these creative processes to you, whoever you are. If part of you likes to go spelunking in the caves of your unconscious mind and soar to distant realms with your Higher Self as your guide, then we may make pretty good traveling companions.